This has not been a good month for me.\u00a0 Which is very frustrating, because normally this is my favorite time of year.\u00a0 I want to start over, but I can’t.\u00a0 Neither life nor the universe work that way.\u00a0 I’m going to have to wait an entire year to get another shot at it.\u00a0 It’s frustrating, to say the least.<\/p>\n
The original concept for my novel involved my MC being forced to learn about the world of magic upon the sudden death\/murder(?) of his uncle.\u00a0 This lasted for about 18 hours.\u00a0 That night, I received news that my aunt had passed away suddenly.\u00a0 She went from flu-like symptoms, to hospitalization, to terminal, all within the span of about 48 hours.\u00a0 It’s very hard to write a novel with death as a major plot point when you suddenly find yourself in a similar situation.<\/p>\n
It had been over 15 years since the last time a member of my immediate family passed away.\u00a0 I knew it was going to happen eventually, of course, but… well, none of us expected Death to skip over my remaining grandparent or my constantly frail uncle when it did.\u00a0 Life is funny that way, I suppose.\u00a0 And while I did not lose a grandma, or a mother, or a wife, as did others in the family… well, it doesn’t really hurt any less.\u00a0 I have to remind myself of that.<\/p>\n
Factor in my already precarious mental health, an abnormal sleep schedule, and the myriad physical illnesses from which I have not been able to fully recover, and… well, it seems the common theme of these past few weeks has been dropping the ball.\u00a0 Granted, I am undoubtedly the harshest critic of myself right now– I’ve spent the past few weeks either vaguebooking or outright denying what has happened, and you all have still been nothing but supportive.\u00a0 However, no acts of kindness or displays of empathy can change the undeniable fact that the ball is on the ground.\u00a0 The word count ball, the social activity ball, the responsible adult ball, the simple chores ball, and countless others… dropped or falling.<\/p>\n
I am not okay.\u00a0 But… I will be.\u00a0 With luck, sometime within the next two weeks.\u00a0 But if not… well, so be it.<\/p>\n
Life goes on.<\/p>\n
So will I.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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